Health Depression

[DemurePrincess]

My mate Eliza lived a 15 minute drive from me, texted her for a coffee I got "I'm so busy for the next few months sorry!"

Like go **** yourself. Havent heard from her since. That was 2-3 years ago

What was she doing ffs??? Sailing solo to New Zealand

 

[DemurePrincess]

Ya don’t need pals like that

 

[Shell]

Lol im not going to Brisbane any time soon.

Unless you pay for my ticket (to the GC)

 

[Macca19]

Nah I'd say 20s better.

20- went OS twice, found a steady career, start of LTR, 2 premierships
30- went OS once, one premiership, broke up LTR, job was happy enough
40s- cancelled 40th due to COVID, severe depression, left job, COVID, saw one premiership but wasn't there and didnt enjoy it whatsoever, lost all friends, they've all disappeared.

20s - Got married, moved to the country, was generally all good

30s - Three kids which is amazing. Thats where the good times end though. Otherwise hardcore depression, homesick, hardcore anxiety, marriage failing, an abusive work place that I couldn't get out of, moved back home, marriage got even worse, suicidal, sought professional help

40s - Seperated a month after my 40th, it's been all up ever since. Mostly got on top of the depression and anxiety, did the single thing for a bit, met someone 1000x nicer than my ex wife, feel i'm the best dad and partner I could be

 

[Shell]

Ya don’t need pals like that

The sad thing is she was my first ever mate thru BF. Ive known her since 2006 and she was new to Geelong- like literally new, she moved here from OS.


I still have NFI what i did

 

[DemurePrincess]

You aren’t from Brisbane? Meep!

I thought you were gonna be my new bestie

 

[DemurePrincess]

20s - Got married, moved to the country, was generally all good

30s - Three kids which is amazing. Thats where the good times end though. Otherwise hardcore depression, homesick, hardcore anxiety, marriage failing, an abusive work place that I couldn't get out of, moved back home, marriage got even worse, suicidal, sought professional help

40s - Seperated a month after my 40th, it's been all up ever since. Mostly got on top of the depression and anxiety, did the single thing for a bit, met someone 1000x nicer than my ex wife, feel i'm the best dad and partner I could be

You are your only judge fella

 

[Shell]

I could never live north of Melbourne. No thanks

 

[DemurePrincess]

I could never live north of Melbourne. No thanks

Well my dreams are crushed

 

[MP_]

Talking to professionals just isnt for me i dont think. Same deal with the counsellor I saw for a bit. Just not for me- she was lovely tho.

Same, after seeing a counsellor due to suicidal thoughts and he told me to “just start doing things that make you happy” I haven’t seen or opened up to anyone since.

 

[Shell]

Same, after seeing a counsellor due to suicidal thoughts and he told me to “just start doing things that make you happy” I haven’t seen or opened up to anyone since.

Idiot.

One weirdo of a psychologist seemed to fixated on me taking recreational drugs. Kept asking me about it, like wtaf. I am not into that shit whatsoever are you ****ing deaf.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Same, after seeing a counsellor due to suicidal thoughts and he told me to “just start doing things that make you happy” I haven’t seen or opened up to anyone since.

What a campaigner of a thing to say to someone who is hurting so much!

I’m so sorry that happened…. You can speak here freely and as open as you like.

#nojudgement

 

[Shell]

The other psychologist seemed to be some hippie wanted me to connect with nature.

Spew.

 

[DemurePrincess]

Idiot.

One weirdo of a psychologist seemed to fixated on me taking recreational drugs. Kept asking me about it, like wtaf. I am not into that shit whatsoever are you ****ing deaf.

Yep. Refuse drugs. Especially ones that dull the senses

 

[Shell]

Yep. Refuse drugs. Especially ones that dull the senses

It's not really the point. He just kept going on and on about it. Like I was lying or something.

Only saw him once. The hippie lady I gave a few more goes before quitting.

The psychiatrist was the best

 

[Run n Spread]

The other psychologist seemed to be some hippie wanted me to connect with nature.

Spew.

They're are so many weirdos who work in psychology it isn't funny

 

[Run n Spread]

I remember I've had issues in my own head since 12.
Yet an naive me was put on **** knows what in my late teens
When realistically I'd already worked a few problems out in my own head and knew what I needed to do

 

[Shell]

I wouldn't know if the psychology teachers are weird or not, I don't work on the senior campus

 

[Run n Spread]

I wouldn't know if the psychology teachers are weird or not, I don't work on the senior campus

I meant psychologists.
Maybe psychology teachers are weird who knows?
Most teachers I've come across seem fine

 

[Run n Spread]

In hindsight I'm just not built for the 9 till 5 lifestyle
I permanently feel in a state of jet lag.
Getting up at 630 in the morning has worn me out.
I need another lifestyle.
Yet say that and people think your crazy. Well they are for putting up with this shit

 

[Run n Spread]

I guess it won't happen.
But up to me my business will succeed and I'll travel the world.
And have a few kids before I die

 

[Shell]

In hindsight I'm just not built for the 9 till 5 lifestyle
I permanently feel in a state of jet lag.
Getting up at 630 in the morning has worn me out.
I need another lifestyle.
Yet say that and people think your crazy. Well they are for putting up with this shit

I don't think it's crazy at all.

The weekends go by in a flash. There's a push for the 4 day work week and I completely agree.

Probably will never apply to education tho

 

[Run n Spread]

I don't think it's crazy at all.

The weekends go by in a flash. There's a push for the 4 day work week and I completely agree.

Probably will never apply to education tho

Education will be the last to do it

 

[Run n Spread]

I look at people smiling and happy this morning.
Good lord what is their secret?
Legit are they all on drugs and there is some hidden secret I haven't cottoned onto?
One day in the future we will wonder why the **** we all live like this. It's pure madness.
I legit do not know how I'm even functioning.
All I can do is work and sleep. But I can barely stay awake anymore.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I look at people smiling and happy this morning.
Good lord what is their secret?
Legit are they all on drugs and there is some hidden secret I haven't cottoned onto?
One day in the future we will wonder why the **** we all live like this. It's pure madness.
I legit do not know how I'm even functioning.
All I can do is work and sleep. But I can barely stay awake anymore.

Life isn’t easy friend but surely there is something you enjoy! Something! Even if it’s sitting people watching! Eating a bunch of grapes. Sitting in the sun.

Sounds like you are in a rut! Sit here by all means and vent about that but you need to help yourself friend. If you don’t have that ‘thing’ that makes you happy. Then go find it bc it won’t find you. That’s not how life works.

Happiness is found within. And once you find it. It then protrudes through you and radiates!

Sending love mate. Sending you strength. Sending you a little bit of my happiness bc I have plenty to share and I will sit here forever listening if it keeps you on this earth.

Much love