Shit sorry to hear that de_LICA_ish18, only just came back now to check this thread and saw your post.
Hope you're going OK.
Have you had checks yourself, a colonoscopy. I'm sure your dr would be all over that for you.
It's just dreadful watching a loved one emaciating away with cancer.
Thanks. Cancer is a horrible thing, it took both my parents when I was young also.
I'm so afraid of cancer that I got to the point that I didn't want to know if I had it. In the week leading up to my brother passing away I started getting really worried that I'd have it myself. I just wasn't feeling well at all but also knew it could be the stress.
My brother was diagnosed 2 years ago and I hid it from my doctor. About a week after my brother died I had a doctors appointment for a prescription refill. By this time I built up so match stress that I'd have bowel cancer that I knew I had to tell him. I knew he'd send me for a colonoscopy which he did.
A week later I did it and it was absolutely fine. Best feeling ever. So glad I did it, such a relief and the procedure ended up being a piece of cake and nothing to be scared about. I have to them every 3 years now but that's ok, I'm not afraid anymore.