Health Depression

[DemurePrincess]

Yeh but once you’re dead you can’t talk to us ?!
Where’s the fun in that ?

 

[MP_]

Yeh but once you’re dead you can’t talk to us ?!
Where’s the fun in that ?

I think a lot about that moment you take your last breath and what actually happens next. I’ve had some great dreams about being a ghost and paying back all the people I’ve disliked in my life.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I think a lot about that moment you take your last breath and what actually happens next. I’ve had some great dreams about being a ghost and paying back all the people I’ve disliked in my life.

Oh! Those thoughts aren’t too bad. As long as you don’t want to get there sooner rather that later… go later bc the list could get real long and your afterlife could be so much ****ing fun

 

[DemurePrincess]

2025 is going to be a year of change for me. I’ve made some significant changes already. I turned 50 this year. I will no longer put up with time wasters, negativity and bullies. I will listen to your complaint but if you do not show me actions then I will turn my back on you!

If you speak harshly of me or anyone else I will turn my back on you!

If I keep giving and giving and giving and you keep taking and taking and taking , I will turn my back on you because I am no longer a doormat.

I am going to be the steps that rise and keep rising.

I am DP. Hear me ****ing ROAR!!!!

 

[CM86]

Thank you all again. Your posts and interactions always have a positive impact on me.
Even just that you're brave enough to think about these things, let alone share them.

 

[MP_]

Thank you all again. Your posts and interactions always have a positive impact on me.
Even just that you're brave enough to think about these things, let alone share them.

Being able to just get it off my chest helps alot as I don’t burden anyone in my life with this stuff

 

[DemurePrincess]

Being able to just get it off my chest helps alot as I don’t burden anyone in my life with this stuff

Awesome! So it’s just us!

Nah! I love that we have such a fab community! We may never met but it’s always nice to help others and even it’s just for a second

 

[DemurePrincess]

There is a level of strength, that I don't poses, that many of you have that lets you think about and consider things that I can't even write about at the moment. haha.

The way some of you have reached out, and some of you have engaged. It's impactful.



It's frustrating that more often than not, people are punished for being honest.
It's all about paperwork, never support.
Reactive vs proactive.


While I appreciate and support all aspects of suicide prevention, and life saving action.
I was locked up for a short period of time, for a post I made on this forum.
And while I can understand the policy behind it, I can never risk expressing myself to that degree of honesty, ever again.

That’s okay mate. I personally have an open door policy so my pm’s are always available to you. I dont care what anyone thinks of me… I’m 50 (nearly) so beyond that care factor but I also look at the journey of my life and all the good, bad and ugly has brought to this very spot where I stand today.

I am happy! I am truly finally happy. I don’t don’t make a million dollars, I don’t have hundred of friends but what I do know is that I’ve accepted my past… life is a gift!

And I’m enjoying that present on a daily basis… sometimes the paper gets a bit tatty…. Sometimes it’s even torn but sticky tape does wonder

 

[DemurePrincess]

Thank you, and sorry.

I literally cannot stop sobbing at the moment.

I passed out earlier. And just hate myself even more for running away.

I don't know how to handle or deal with anything.

Firstly… take a breath!

Unless you are hurt… you aren’t dying right? If you are hurt… please seek medical attention. If this is not the case then find yourself a safe space at home and take 10 deep breaths! Hold the last 4 for longer.

Take a moment… look around you and ground yourself!

Your head will Always make things seem bigger than they actually are.

You are okay friend

 

[Run n Spread]

Firstly… take a breath!

Unless you are hurt… you aren’t dying right? If you are hurt… please seek medical attention. If this is not the case then find yourself a safe space at home and take 10 deep breaths! Hold the last 4 for longer.

Take a moment… look around you and ground yourself!

Your head will Always make things seem bigger than they actually are.

You are okay friend

What do you mean?
I'm one more concussion and hitting my head on concrete from death.
Deep breathing won't cut it.
What will is own business money and transition out of work and a bullshit 9 till 5 lifestyle.

 

[DemurePrincess]

What do you mean?
I'm one more concussion and hitting my head on concrete from death.
Deep breathing won't cut it.
What will is own business money and transition out of work and a bullshit 9 till 5 lifestyle.

I was trying to be helpful…
I don’t take deep breaths either… it’s more like a hyperventilate

 

[Run n Spread]

I was trying to be helpful…
I don’t take deep breaths either… it’s more like a hyperventilate

Nothing helps

 

[Run n Spread]

I wish generally there was some place we could meet. And I'm not talking about some weird AA tell us your sins or bullshit addiction or whatever that means .
But somewhere we could honestly discuss life

 

[MP_]

I wish generally there was some place we could meet. And I'm not talking about some weird AA tell us your sins or bullshit addiction or whatever that means .
But somewhere we could honestly discuss life

Yeah I really struggle to open up to people I know as I really don’t want to burden them with my issues. I’m worried about judgement and then what others will think. I think if I met people from here id clam up or just bawl my eyes out.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I wish generally there was some place we could meet. And I'm not talking about some weird AA tell us your sins or bullshit addiction or whatever that means .
But somewhere we could honestly discuss life

Or have a wee drink and maybe a laugh once in a while! Bc life isn’t meant to be a doom. It should be celebrated every once in while that we are kicking some kind of goal whether it’s big or small

 

[DemurePrincess]

Yeah I really struggle to open up to people I know as I really don’t want to burden them with my issues. I’m worried about judgement and then what others will think. I think if I met people from here id clam up or just bawl my eyes out.

Thats okay too.

 

[Run n Spread]

Yeah I really struggle to open up to people I know as I really don’t want to burden them with my issues. I’m worried about judgement and then what others will think. I think if I met people from here id clam up or just bawl my eyes out.

I'm the same but have stopped caring.
It's 39 degrees in Melbourne and I love it

 

[DemurePrincess]

I'm the same but have stopped caring.
It's 39 degrees in Melbourne and I love it

It’s just started pissing with rain here…
A nice relief from the heat of the day

 

[Run n Spread]

It’s just started pissing with rain here…
A nice relief from the heat of the day

I prefer the heat and love running round but had a bad day.

 

[DemurePrincess]

I prefer the heat and love running round but had a bad day.

You okay? Need to off load…

 

[Run n Spread]

You okay? Need to off load…

What do you mean

 

[DemurePrincess]

What do you mean

You said you had a bad day? Was asking did you want to talk about it?

 

[Run n Spread]

You said you had a bad day? Was asking did you want to talk about it?

Doesnt matter. They're all bad days.
No one cares or more importantly can't really do anything so keep trucking on

 

[DemurePrincess]

Doesnt matter. They're all bad days.
No one cares or more importantly can't really do anything so keep trucking on

Yep! I tend to agree! Keep on swimming! But surely not everyday is bad.

I’ll tell to something funny?

I just bought 2 new containers of bug’s for my bearded dragon this arvo. And I emptied them into the bug container holder but failed to close the lid properly so as I turned around after a few minutes… I had a shit load of loose wood cockroaches and crickets crawling all over my kitchen.

I’ve tried to catch as many as I could and the rest were sucked up in the vacuum but the I keep feeling like I have them crawling on me and I keep seeing them out the corner of my eye

It’s freaking me the **** out lol

 

[Run n Spread]

Yep! I tend to agree! Keep on swimming! But surely not everyday is bad.

I’ll tell to something funny?

I just bought 2 new containers of bug’s for my bearded dragon this arvo. And I emptied them into the bug container holder but failed to close the lid properly so as I turned around after a few minutes… I had a shit load of loose wood cockroaches and crickets crawling all over my kitchen.

I’ve tried to catch as many as I could and the rest were sucked up in the vacuum but the I keep feeling like I have them crawling on me and I keep seeing them out the corner of my eye

It’s freaking me the **** out lol

You'll be right. Something bit me the other day but all good