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AFLW 2024 - Round 10 - Chat, game threads, injury lists, team lineups and more.
You know probably for the first time I lost it today. I guess you can only hold it in for so long. Today was the day a lot of it came out.
I guess it's all new to me as well, and no matter how brave you try to be, how hard you fight it, you can't hold on forever.
My life in reality has been taken away from me right now and it may only get harder I guess, I suppose it's all about how you make up for it when all is said and done.
In reality it's just something you can't escape no matter how hard you try, no matter how many good people you surround yourself with the fact is you're not normal anymore and that's something I have to come to terms with and what a lot of people in my shoes have had to come to terms with.
When an ornchologist sits across the room from you when you're only 25 and tells you your fertility will be effected by the chemotherapy, now that's when things start to hit you.
I took a lot of it out on footy during this week. Footy is probably the one thing I love as much as my family and friends, and **** I wanted to win so bad last Saturday. It was more than any other game, not so much just for a win itself, but to say I enjoyed that because there hasn't been a lot of enjoyable times lately. It was my first game back. The day I felt a little bit normal again.
There's a lot to take out of football, and I just hope that anyone else in my position has something like this to help with a long hard fight, full of ups and downs.
All you have to do is look at some of the more inspirational acts in history and they will teach you lessons not only about football, but life.
I look at people like Ramanauskas and how he has overcome illness on numerous occasions just to do what he loves.
To me, although it's a completely different situation Jason McCartney and his battle for the game shows how hard a human is willing to work to do what he loves just one more time.
I love football, there's probably people on BF that love it more, there are probably people on this thread that love it more, but I would do anything to just one more time get out on the field, I wouldn't care if it was the MCG, or Tootgarook oval, just to prove to myself, and only myself that I can do it again. Just 1 game. Like McCartney I would train for 6 months for that 1 game alone, I would train for 2 years if I had to, but it is just something I need to do. I got struck down when I was only 22 with injuries and forced to sit out since, but I would sell my soul to just play 4 more quarters of the game, whether it was senior footy, reserves footy or D4 in the amateurs.
Our captain himself knows what footy means to me, and make no mistake when I say, even though I was sitting in a hospital bed, hardly being able to move, a cathater in my weiner and high as a kite on morphene, the day our captain came to visit me was one of the greatest days in my life.
I don't remember a lot about the week I was in hospital, but I remember every minute that Scott was by my bed. He is a super bloke, and I have to thank my dad for organizing it for me.
If I could give advice to anyone who is going through an illness, depression, anything that can bring forth horrible, sad time, it would be to realise that you're not superman, you're only human, and that's as far as it goes. Be human, don't try to be any more.
I am proud of myself, i'm very proud. I've showed courage, and a willingness to live a better life so far. I hate cancer, I ****ing hate it so much, but one thing it will do is make me a better person. I'm not going to thank it, but I'm going to remember it. When things get hard I will remember how hard they can be.
I'm going to the footy tomorrow night. I'll be going very low key, i'll distance myself from most people, I'll go with my dad and my girlfriend and that's it. I probably won't recognise anyone there, I won't speak to anyone there, and I don't really intend to because I don't feel like it at the moment, but while I'm there I will know that i'm apart of something, apart of something very special to me, whether it's the atmosphere, the cold wintery air, the $5 meat pies, or the blokes on the field busting their guts. All I know is that they are my favourite days, and life is worth living when you're doing the things you love to do no matter how hard you're fighting to live a healthy life.